DUNZOOOOO

So yesterday was my last chemo. HOLY HALLELUJUAH. Monday night I was super stressed and it was a task just to try to keep it together. I was scared, excited, and nervous. I was thinking WHAT if something goes wrong, WHAT if this isn't the last chemo I will have to do. Well I can cross the what if something goes wrong off the list cuz it went fine. And I think I have to deal with the fact that indeed there may be more chemo down the road at any point but I have to celebrate the fact that the chemo that started wayyyy back on Sept 29/09 has now come to an end. I feel pretty positive today and I am hoping to keep it that way over the next few days. I have mentally gone into recovery mode even though I have to deal with another 5-6 days or so of strong side effects.

Sooo you may be wondering what the next steps are. ME TOO! ha. basically now that radiation and chemo are done I will have some more tests and follow ups over the next month. I am scheduled for a left mastectomy on March 5. After that routine bone scans to make sure that cancer is all gone. I am basically waiting for someone to say the chemo worked and I am all clear but I think I will have to wait until surgery is complete for that verdict.

Soooo in the meantime I am going to try to enjoy the few weeks I have before surgery and get out and do some stuff. And then recoop from surgery and again try to get out and do more. I hope I am not getting toooo ahead of myself but it feels great to have some control back to your life. Just need to start small.

Oh and I almost forgot to mention the best part!!!! The cursed PIC line came out yesterday. Now I just have a bandaid on my arm and it feels great!! Now I can fit long sleeve shirts over my arm and I can bend it and have a proper shower without using a freezer bag. Ahhhhh yesssssssss.